My dear child .. Though I have at times told you that I need no paraphernalia , I just need your love. But ,I need you to focus your mind in something positive. When you light a lamp .. when you smell the scent of incense stick ..when you sing aartis . Your heart gets cleansed away of the pain , the hurt you have been through. Your nihilistic and egoistic thoughts wash away. You need this my child . Just start and see the effects. 😊